There comes a point in everyone’s life, when he ‘THINKS’ he has lost ‘EVERYTHING’. He has to move on forgetting the things, the persons who in actual matters a lot. To say Good-Bye to things when they are actually needed, and the worst part comes when you don’t have any reason why all that happened. Why a sudden cyclone comes when everything is going fine and it destroyed all. As it seems you are a victim of broken ship, who has been fighting with waves and trying every bit to find a shore.
You realised that there can’t be a worst phase of your life, when people see only worst in you. Things of your that are once appreciated are been considered bad and you don’t have any way, any method to get out of it.
But whatever the situation in life is, the good thing about life is it always gives you an option. An option to live life as life or to keep yourself in the dogma of past. you are the reason of your every problem and you are the solution of your every problem. Just accept every situation that you considered as problem. Life don’t have any Pause button, Time waits for none. Believe Life is not only a beauty to admire, but also a duty to complete, a song to sing and a tragedy to confront. If life takes you to that point, there must be a reason for it. Just wait for that reason. If you know you are right stand for it don’t care even if you are standing alone and when you are wrong don’t hesitate to accept it. In life if you can’t forget just forgive and if you can’t forgive just forget. Take Life in the way God has given, enjoy its every color, believe your instincts. Life is too precious don’t waste it. Life is life fight for it.

Finally its over, 4 months 17 Days that leaves an immortal impact over my life. Memory has an uncanny ability of making us sad when we are happy and making us happy when we are sad. Infosys, Mysore has given me plethora of memories, some good, some bad, some I want to keep in perpetuum, some I want to forget. I felt the unfathomable pain and enjoyed the zenith of happiness. Learnt so many new things and meet so many new peoples.

 In the end I would like to thank few of my friends who have been there with me in my good and bad time. Two of my desktops one till Intermediate and one after that who accompanies me throughout my training. Copter, Bowling, Mario, Circus games who took me 10 years back. Toniff and Jai Mata Di restaurant who helped me to distinguish between north Indian and south Indian food. CCD in oasis and Arena for realizing me that coffee is not a bad beverage. Amoeba for its short queues. Housekeeping guys for teaching me what honesty is. Code Snippets without which I would have never passed my training. Forwarded mails who bring out smile on my face even after hectic training schedule. The black screen of Mainframe Terminal for realizing me computers are not always colorful and above all two special places one is Amphitheatre and another one is Gazzebo, the second one I found very later but is equally special. Both these are very close to my heart and shall always be. Since they are part of my sadness. In our life, its acceptable if we forget one who is part of our happiness but should never forget those who is part of our sadness. Miss you Mysore, I intentionally not took any pic but you shall stay in my heart forever.

Who are you..? This is the question, that I’m answering since I was three years old. I remember when I was four years old and any relative came to my home, the answer of this question fetched me a chocolate and a smile on the face of relative. Since then time has changed and so many other things and  one such thing is my identity. At that time I was Pankaj, to extend I studied in New Dawn Public School and that was more than sufficient. With time I realized I’m someone’s son, someone’s brother, someone’s friend, I studied somewhere, I have certain likes and dislikes. And all these things dominate my identity, I got so confused that I don’t know which among these shoul I made part of my identity and which should I leave. I love when my identity is solely mine. Some times I think If I’m a mere parasite.? Perhaps not, I have an identity though its according to me.

Well I’m Pankaj Verma, born in Kshatriya Family. But about kshatriya’s I only know that the earlier Hindu Culture was being divided into four main castes and Kshatriya is one of them. They were the persons who fought for Nations safety. Since I was born neither my parents told me more on this nor I ever attempted to know. I was the guy who was rusticated on the very first day of school life. I made dracelueon marks on the face of my class teacher because she was not allowing me to sit in my brothers class. Perhaps that was the only day of kingterdon garden school period. Since my father is in bank, till my school days I spent my life at four places but never ashamed of the fact that two of them was not even district. Since my childhood English was my weakest subject, but I never blamed myself for that according to me my parents and my teachers were the reason for that. Mathematics was my favorite and strongest subject but I never ever thanked anyone for this. I tried to made it an issue when the food prepared by my Mom was not good but I never thanked or appreciated her when it was tasty. When It comes to friend I found myself lucky, though I never understand why girls had an edge there, perhaps that was the only similarity between me and my brother. Iconsidered myself to be super brilliant but from IIT-JEE to CAT, I had a record of failures, for it I had an excuse that I failed at border. But there is nothing like failing at Border, there are merely two things either fail or pass, nothing like failing at border. I don’t know how many negative qualties I have and how much shall I develop but still some things exist that are constant throughout my life.

The first and foremost is I’m a man of principles. I’v my own rules of living lives and I love to live by them, I never regret for things that I have done earlier but try to learn from them. I spent my childhood at rishikesh and the wordings and preachings of Mahatma have a deep impact over my life. I love to do the things that I love and I hate to do the things that I hate. I believe that nothing in this world is more important than our inner satisfaction. I believe that I’m not born to please others but those who rely on me I never ditch them. For me the four most precious and important word are Son, Friendship, Love and Trust. I may bad at anything in this world but when it comes to any of these four I know I’m the best. If I consider some one my friend than He is my friend throughout my life no matter what shall be the situations and conditions in life, no matter we shall talk or not. When it comes to love, I know what Love is. I know its meaning to the deepest. If I love someone, I lve her so much that the love of whole world shall not balance it. This is not what I think but this is what I believe. I never break anyone’s trust. For me these four things matter more than anything else in this world. I’m a Theist and have blind faith in God, that’s why nothing wrong ever happened to me in my life. I believe in enjoying every colour of life because then only I know what life is..